Oh my god, I would do anything for a full day of sleep back in my own bed.  Every since we had this house fire, we are staying in this craphole of an apartment and I'm not sleeping well at all.  I'm sure stress and still being bored out of my mind at my job doesn't help either.

I have felt like I've been stuck in the middle of so much lately.  First between my mom and my grandma, my mom and my brother, my mom and my sister.... seriously?  Why can't any of you people be adult's?  It's driving me insane.  (Yes, common factor is mom.... however, I don't blame her at all on any of this)

Then, I am on the board of a non profit and there was a fundraiser for it last night.  I swear, I do quite a bit more than the other board members, but it's not enough I guess.  My fiance and I had plans at the same time as the fundraiser and I was given the hugest guilt trip about not attending.  It was bad.  It seriously made me think about stepping down from the board even though it is something I truly care about.  Why do people have to be so petty about things?  So, we did end up going to the event - you know what?  Hardly any of the board members were there!  Why was I the one to be made feel like crap when no one showed up.  I also got the stink eye because we didn't dress up for it.  Meaning, I didn't put a dress on.  We had jeans and nice shirts on.  Oh well......get over it.

I am very very excited for this weekend.  It's the Halloween and Put in Bay, my favorite event of the year!  I am going to drink all damn weekend and go crazy.  I slutted my costume way up and am going to look smokin hot!  I wish my fiance liked Put in Bay and would go.... but then again, this is total me time and I enjoy it.