Ending a year....

As I've mentioned before, 2010 has been an extremely hard year for us.  My brother accused of criminal theft, a house fire, learning who my true friends are, going through money like crazy and a family fight.  I can't say I'm sad to see 2010 go.  A couple things I've learned this year....

• Be thankful everyday to have our home and bed to sleep in.
• Be thankful we and our puppy our safe.
• A dog can bring you just as much happiness as a child.
• My fella will stick by my side and my family's side through think and thin.
• Always believe the best in people.  It's not worth the time to think of reason's not too.  Everyone gets a fair chance.
• No one that mess's with my loved ones deserves a second chance.
• Gossiping about other's is extremely boring.
• Spending time with my immediate family is the most important and fun thing to me.
• Tell those you love that you love them every single chance you get.

2011 is going to be huge for me.  I get my first girls trip since being with my love, to Florida in January.  I will be our branch's assistant race chair for the Susan G Komen Race for the Cure, which is sending me to Dallas in February for training.  I marry the love of my life in June, and we immediately leave for our honeymoon in Antigua after.  I am not coming back to work after the wedding.  I'll be working hard to get my personal fitness certification.  So many exciting things to come!  My hopes and dreams for the next year:

• Treat my man better and better each day.  Show him he is the world to me.
• Have a wedding that is elegant but more fun than anything - without going broke.
• Find something special to do with just my immediate family.
• Let things go.  Just smile and walk away.
• Work out 3-5 times a week while keeping a healthy diet.  Taste the sugary, salty, fatty foods -  don't eat!

Here's to hoping all the random readers out there have a safe new year.  May the sadness, frustrations and issues stay in 2010 with 2011 bringing you wealthy, fun, laughter and happiness.

My job makes me sick

I swear!  If I am off for a few days, I will feel absolutely fine.  Great actually.  But 2 hours at my job and I am nauseous, sore, tired - just plain blah.  I know it has to do with my feelings at the place but I don't know how to overcome it.  I hate being at work and am miserable every moment I am,or even thinking about it.  And when I leave, I need to lay down almost immediately to feel better.  That really puts a kink in my life.  It's sad to say that I lay awake at night and pray that my company will be shut down and I'll get a call that I dont' have to go in anymore.  Which isn't fair to my fellow employees that need the job (even though they are miserable too).  I count down the days until I don't have to come back.  The wedding is in 165 days, so that means 163 days of work left!  Off to  dream of my days of being a housewife.

Best Friends

I don't know if my man came into my life at the exact right time and changed me, if I just grew up or a little of both.  Within days/weeks of us 'dating' he immediatly became my best friend and I needed it.  I've always had best friend issues. 

In high school, my best friend had moments of loving to bring me down.  I never got it, just always let it go and we went back to normal after her little bouts.  Our friendship slowly dissolved my senior year and we haven't really talked since. 

I didn't have another one until my early 20's.  I don't even remember how I met the girl, I just remember how much I loved her.  We had the most fun together.  She was my drinking, getting crazy buddy.  We did everything together.  Even appearantly share men.  She ended up screwing around with the man I was totally infatuated with, and who I thought was strictly hooking up with me.  It was a bad situation.  I cut her out of my life instantly.  I missed her bad, for a long time to too.

Then, I got close with my cousins.  We were together all the time.  Crazy fun.  I can't even remember all the stuff we did, because there was so much drinking involved.  But, I do remember always laughing.  Something happened though.  The one cousin got divorced and she was boy crazy for some time after that, it was fun for all of us.  Then all of the sudden, she just became too good.  If she was/is hooking up or dating, she doesn't talk about it at all, at least to me.  And no guy is good enough for her.  The other cousin had kids.  I feel like at that moment, I matured and she didn't.  I've gotten over gossiping and talking about what's going on with everyone else.  I don't have much of an interest in it.  Unless it affects someone I love, I really don't care.  And it got to be that's all she did.  And her thoughts are always forced upon me.  I appreciate her opinion and thoughts, but I have my own.  And we may not agree, I can accept it, she should too.  If I don't agree, let it go.....don't keep going on and on about why I should.  I just kinda got over the whole friendship with both of them.  Plus, they do and spend a lot of time together and don't include me.  (Well, they say I'm always included but never invite me... hmmmm)  So, I think they got over it too.

Which brings me to my current bestie.  She came into my life at exactly the right time.  I knew her sister first and liked her sister, but once I met her, it was instant love!  I know I can count on her for anything.  I smile just thinking about her.  We laugh the whole time we are together.  I adore her husband and children too.  I slowly grew apart from my cousins and this fantastic girl came into my life.  God sent the perfect person when I needed it.

I can't finish off without mentioning my man again.  I really can talk to him about anything.  I never thought I'd have a guy in my life that I'd be this close to.  It amazes me.

And my momma, if I don't talk to her 4 times a day, I freak out.  She is my complete and total rock.

I hope everyone always has that total special person in their lives that they can go too and count on through anything.  I hope my bestie knows I would do the same for her too. 

Let's get this year over with already

Why is there so much drama in  my family.  I know not every single family has to deal with this stuff.  Why does mine?  This has been a really hard year.  I hope that the big family argument last night is the end of the hard year for me.  And that new beginnings are around the corner.


They say God only gives you what he knows you can handle.... well, God, I need a break.  2011 would be an awesome time for that, don't you think?  I know alot of us need it and deserve it.  That's my hope and wishes for the next year.


Here's to wishing you, my random unknown readers, and your family, a wonderful holiday season.  I hope 2011 brings you the happiness and love you deserve.

Friday Questions

1. When was the last time you received a surprise phone call from an old friend?   Gosh, I can't remember the last time I received a phone call.  But, I did get a text last night from one of my oldest, dearest friends.






2. Would you rather go horesback riding or to the horse races?  Horseback riding, def







3. What's your most comfortable item of clothing?   Victoria Secret Yoga pants






4. What's your nicest article of clothing?   Hmmm, very tough choice.  Doe smy wedding dress count??  Probably one of my Victoria Secret sweaters. 




5. Do you look more like your mother or your father? I'm built like my father, but I have my moms facial features




6. What's the weather forecast for today where you live? Or do you just look out the window like I do?    High of 50, Low of 36 and partly cloudy.  Hate this weather

Oh my god, I would do anything for a full day of sleep back in my own bed.  Every since we had this house fire, we are staying in this craphole of an apartment and I'm not sleeping well at all.  I'm sure stress and still being bored out of my mind at my job doesn't help either.

I have felt like I've been stuck in the middle of so much lately.  First between my mom and my grandma, my mom and my brother, my mom and my sister.... seriously?  Why can't any of you people be adult's?  It's driving me insane.  (Yes, common factor is mom.... however, I don't blame her at all on any of this)

Then, I am on the board of a non profit and there was a fundraiser for it last night.  I swear, I do quite a bit more than the other board members, but it's not enough I guess.  My fiance and I had plans at the same time as the fundraiser and I was given the hugest guilt trip about not attending.  It was bad.  It seriously made me think about stepping down from the board even though it is something I truly care about.  Why do people have to be so petty about things?  So, we did end up going to the event - you know what?  Hardly any of the board members were there!  Why was I the one to be made feel like crap when no one showed up.  I also got the stink eye because we didn't dress up for it.  Meaning, I didn't put a dress on.  We had jeans and nice shirts on.  Oh well......get over it.

I am very very excited for this weekend.  It's the Halloween and Put in Bay, my favorite event of the year!  I am going to drink all damn weekend and go crazy.  I slutted my costume way up and am going to look smokin hot!  I wish my fiance liked Put in Bay and would go.... but then again, this is total me time and I enjoy it.

I just need one night a week, one night

My schedule is so ridiculously crazy.  Every single night I have something.  So, I'm trying to cram catching up on emails/TV shows/sleep and reading in one night every other week - if I'm lucky.  Now, granted, part of my schedule includes work outs, which I'm thankful I can fit those in.  I am so far behind on my favorite shows. 

We booked our honeymoon today, this takes a HUGE stress of my shoulders.  I was afraid we were taking too long and nothing would be available.  Our original plan was to go to Italy for two weeks and explore.  However, we had that house fire in August and in it, it's depleting our funds big time.  Insurance is fantastic and we have no issues with them covering replacements for everything.  BUT, we had planned on doing some home upgrades after the wedding - painting, carpeting, hardwood floors.  So, since they are replacing everything now, we might as well do the upgrades, and that we have to pay out of pocket for.  We are ending up spending about $10,000 in this whole mess.  That's $10,000 less to spend on the honeymoon.  I am very bummed about the Italy cancellation.  However, in the same thought, I know we will be very stressed after the wedding and Italy would be a busy trip, not a relaxing trip.  It may be for the better, but I'm nervous we'll never make it to Italy now.

Back to the fact we did book today.  We went through a travel agent at Central Travel and they have booked Antigua for us.  I am pretty excited for this place.  It's an all inclusive small, private beach, resort - Hermitage Bay.  We will be in a hillside cottage that has a veranda, outdoor shower and private pool.  This place will be so relaxing and perfect for us to begin our lives and hubby and wifey.  I cannot wait. 

I had last Monday off for Columbus Day and I got to spend it shopping.  It was one of those perfect shopping trips.  I don't have a lot of extra money to spend, but I did need to find some things.  I ended up finding just the right amount of clothing during the trip, for what I had to spend.  Come on, that never happens!

I also had another appointment with my plastic surgeon.  I did get a breast enhancement back in February of this year (one of the top 5 best choices I've ever made).  He is redoing his website and wants to use me as a before and after picture.  That felt really good, since some days I'm really scared that I didn't go big enough.  

I'm on the Toledo Komen Race for the Cure steering committee and we had our wrap party this week.  I found out that we had more participants that the Cleveland Race and the Chicago Race.  How awesome is that?  Our city is small and it's so heart warming to have that many involved.  We came very close to raising a million this year.  What a huge deal!

Our puppy turns one today.  He is currently living with my mom, since the fire.  Neither one of us can get home for lunch to let him out, so she has kept him for us.  I miss being able to spend this big day with him.  He is such a cutie!

We don't have a lot planned for this weekend.  I'm gonna do dinner with my love and catch up on some things hopefully.  Tomorrow is the opening of the Toledo hockey league, the Walley and we are heading to that with our favorite couple. I LOVE hockey.  And we'll spend Sunday at my moms, with our baby.  He'll get special mommy and daddy time on Sunday for his birthday.  I'm thinking of ordering a cake from a local baker that makes doggie cakes.  OH and we are doing our first wedding cake tasting with her!  Ok, so maybe we do have a lot planned.

5 Questions From Barbara

1.If you could meet any celebrity or other personality in the world, who would it be and why?
       Hard question - Kathy Griffin would be so much fun....  And I love Bethenny Frankel.  But I think I'm going to go with Tori Spelling.




2.If you were an animal then what would you be?
    House cat I guess?  There lives seem so easy.



3.When you were growing up what did you want to become in life?
        Housewife!


4.Which is your favourite song that you would sing at a karaoke bar?
         Don't Cha by the Pussycat Dolls. 
Dont cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me, Dont cha



5.Which is the trait you love the most and least about yourself?
    I can't hurt someone's feelings.  Sometimes people need knocked down a few pegs and I wish I could.  Or I wish I could be more honest.  This also left a lot of boys becoming to aggressive because I was too nice.  But.... I am nice to everyone.

 6.Which character in a book best describes who you are?
      Oh my gosh, I really will have to think about this one.

Here I go again...

I created a blog for my fiance and I and in doing so, I thought it's time to get mine back going again. I want to have a way to remember everything! Today is the first day of October and I figure, it's just as good time to start now as any other time.


I've deleted all the old posts. It's time to get past the depressing part of my life and take all the enjoyment I have in. I still have the same old issues, I just have a lot more to be grateful for now.


I'm currently living in a temporary housing apartment with my guy, due to a condo fire. We are planning a wedding for June of next year. I am so extremely excited at the thought of being his wifey. He is the most caring, gorgeous, successful, ambitious guy I know and I'm lucky to have him.


We have a good friend getting married this weekend. I'm excited to be part of this event with them. She is a beautiful person and will make a beautiful bride!