As I've mentioned before, 2010 has been an extremely hard year for us. My brother accused of criminal theft, a house fire, learning who my true friends are, going through money like crazy and a family fight. I can't say I'm sad to see 2010 go. A couple things I've learned this year....
- Be thankful everyday to have our home and bed to sleep in.
- Be thankful we and our puppy our safe.
- A dog can bring you just as much happiness as a child.
- My fella will stick by my side and my family's side through think and thin.
- Always believe the best in people. It's not worth the time to think of reason's not too. Everyone gets a fair chance.
- No one that mess's with my loved ones deserves a second chance.
- Gossiping about other's is extremely boring.
- Spending time with my immediate family is the most important and fun thing to me.
- Tell those you love that you love them every single chance you get.
2011 is going to be huge for me. I get my first girls trip since being with my love, to Florida in January. I will be our branch's assistant race chair for the Susan G Komen Race for the Cure, which is sending me to Dallas in February for training. I marry the love of my life in June, and we immediately leave for our honeymoon in Antigua after. I am not coming back to work after the wedding. I'll be working hard to get my personal fitness certification. So many exciting things to come! My hopes and dreams for the next year:
- Treat my man better and better each day. Show him he is the world to me.
- Have a wedding that is elegant but more fun than anything - without going broke.
- Find something special to do with just my immediate family.
- Let things go. Just smile and walk away.
- Work out 3-5 times a week while keeping a healthy diet. Taste the sugary, salty, fatty foods - don't eat!
Here's to hoping all the random readers out there have a safe new year. May the sadness, frustrations and issues stay in 2010 with 2011 bringing you wealthy, fun, laughter and happiness.
I swear! If I am off for a few days, I will feel absolutely fine. Great actually. But 2 hours at my job and I am nauseous, sore, tired - just plain blah. I know it has to do with my feelings at the place but I don't know how to overcome it. I hate being at work and am miserable every moment I am,or even thinking about it. And when I leave, I need to lay down almost immediately to feel better. That really puts a kink in my life. It's sad to say that I lay awake at night and pray that my company will be shut down and I'll get a call that I dont' have to go in anymore. Which isn't fair to my fellow employees that need the job (even though they are miserable too). I count down the days until I don't have to come back. The wedding is in 165 days, so that means 163 days of work left! Off to dream of my days of being a housewife.
I don't know if my man came into my life at the exact right time and changed me, if I just grew up or a little of both. Within days/weeks of us 'dating' he immediatly became my best friend and I needed it. I've always had best friend issues.
In high school, my best friend had moments of loving to bring me down. I never got it, just always let it go and we went back to normal after her little bouts. Our friendship slowly dissolved my senior year and we haven't really talked since.
I didn't have another one until my early 20's. I don't even remember how I met the girl, I just remember how much I loved her. We had the most fun together. She was my drinking, getting crazy buddy. We did everything together. Even appearantly share men. She ended up screwing around with the man I was totally infatuated with, and who I thought was strictly hooking up with me. It was a bad situation. I cut her out of my life instantly. I missed her bad, for a long time to too.
Then, I got close with my cousins. We were together all the time. Crazy fun. I can't even remember all the stuff we did, because there was so much drinking involved. But, I do remember always laughing. Something happened though. The one cousin got divorced and she was boy crazy for some time after that, it was fun for all of us. Then all of the sudden, she just became too good. If she was/is hooking up or dating, she doesn't talk about it at all, at least to me. And no guy is good enough for her. The other cousin had kids. I feel like at that moment, I matured and she didn't. I've gotten over gossiping and talking about what's going on with everyone else. I don't have much of an interest in it. Unless it affects someone I love, I really don't care. And it got to be that's all she did. And her thoughts are always forced upon me. I appreciate her opinion and thoughts, but I have my own. And we may not agree, I can accept it, she should too. If I don't agree, let it go.....don't keep going on and on about why I should. I just kinda got over the whole friendship with both of them. Plus, they do and spend a lot of time together and don't include me. (Well, they say I'm always included but never invite me... hmmmm) So, I think they got over it too.
Which brings me to my current bestie. She came into my life at exactly the right time. I knew her sister first and liked her sister, but once I met her, it was instant love! I know I can count on her for anything. I smile just thinking about her. We laugh the whole time we are together. I adore her husband and children too. I slowly grew apart from my cousins and this fantastic girl came into my life. God sent the perfect person when I needed it.
I can't finish off without mentioning my man again. I really can talk to him about anything. I never thought I'd have a guy in my life that I'd be this close to. It amazes me.
And my momma, if I don't talk to her 4 times a day, I freak out. She is my complete and total rock.
I hope everyone always has that total special person in their lives that they can go too and count on through anything. I hope my bestie knows I would do the same for her too.
Why is there so much drama in my family. I know not every single family has to deal with this stuff. Why does mine? This has been a really hard year. I hope that the big family argument last night is the end of the hard year for me. And that new beginnings are around the corner.
They say God only gives you what he knows you can handle.... well, God, I need a break. 2011 would be an awesome time for that, don't you think? I know alot of us need it and deserve it. That's my hope and wishes for the next year.
Here's to wishing you, my random unknown readers, and your family, a wonderful holiday season. I hope 2011 brings you the happiness and love you deserve.
